Born in Germany in 1957 and left in an orphanige during her first 2 years of her life, she grew up in Amsterdam in the Netherlands. Her youth was painful and full of rejection...
Mahatma: 'I took this painful start of the orphanage where I stayed for three months in Germany. Then I was transfered to Amsterdam and went again to an orphanage as my mother was Dutch and she could not take care of me. My father had deserted her when she was pregnant of me. After two years my mother collected me and brought me finally home.
Home sounds nice but it was not a good place for me, as I then had an abusive, alcoholic stephfather who was agressive towards me. School was not good either as I was plagued during my five years in my primary school.
All these experiences made the right cocktail for believing that I was not good. I went through my life with very low self esteem and ofcourse I got rejected often, as my believes about myself confirmed itself each time.
At the age of 32 years I found my biological father in the USA and then in the end had a total collapse. I had to stop working and got the desease ME, the chronic fatigue syndrom. I was just at the end of my wit.